Did I ever tell you, you don't have a methodity at all? Some people have to make it through, they go and buy some books, listening on-line, trying it out without any motivation its just they really need to make some living out of that expense?

You don't try to think, borrow some books, listening to some talks on-line?

You don't have to be that native English speakers like me to even can write something here you are reading about it.