We try again, how to acquire a love in the guy's population?

You go with what he likes to see, not what you imagine everyone else sees. You only have one him world, that is in front of you. The food he says cook, the food he lists A to Z, his liking, his New Age, his Church....etc.

The way you talking to him, not internal, his eyes sight corner knowing your tempament are uproaring in rage. Seriously...the way you look at him, the way you polish your regret, or the way how you express to him, you hidden that anger directly aim at him. He doesn't even know why you are angry at him. 

The guys trying to calm you down. You believing something like the Soap Opera? I teling you, that will never happen, that first look the first scene he leaves forever the moment you argue, and provoking him on the words you had a reason. There is no reason. Not at him, not going forward trying to win 1 mins. Everything of that, its a sure failure, no matter what. 

You want to try a new guy, at our age bracket, you are all just 37 years....you try on the 30 years old guy? A brand new face, on the street, how he will leave you forever? 

Try UB Honor Class Eric, Jonas, Dean, or Wing and Jonathon???!!

Your mistakes of the last 20 years ending up....before you trying something new. 

I used to always happy everyone are with their behalf. Until I keep getting slap on the Television, with everything strange to curl up my past memory what really did happen in my real life, and there are the huge numbers exhibiting right on, still no one telling me, get off, that things square even off. 

Nothing.

Not yet.

The Appearance ( When I grew up, I didn't have any appearance I knew I never gonna get a guy. I never know the words make-up)

You gonna be plain looking... I know.

1) Eye sight without the eye glasses

2) 4 limbs moving without the back slump

3) Sitting or writing posture, or you have a bean bag PC game room now?

4) Body shape

5) Body weight

6) Your regular exercise, or fitness plan, or even me have nothing just stretching...I didn't even do the full round stuffs to stretching like everyone else = weight lifting.

7) Do you have the running shoe, always shorter than the guy, you run or you walk, how do you shopping to blister at the foot?

8) You house or your room -in room stuffs pile up, or there is a garage junks at?

9) Your clothing, closet, every washed the cloth with the perfume, sound like per each are a brand new? NEVER washed, keep buying? Too expensive to wash?

10) Your shoe, how big the closet my house for that one Tina Jojo?

11) Your money, your saving, your are in debts?

12) Your plan your student loan, so there is a future, or you just trying to graduate or you get up your GPA ?

13) Do you organize your desk top, your PC internal file organization chart, or screen shot how you naming them? Do you regular dump the trash can? Sitting there hourly per day, for 2 weeks, sorting all the photo shooting, setting a schedule like you know how to use a Google Calendar.

14) Are you prone toward organized person? Meaning you like to organize your drawer?

15) Do you wipe your house, your room, how often? Feeling like, or got told to?

16) How is your internal car looking?

17) Do you create a website yet, how far you making over your "cannot stop breathing", not Just song on "cannot stop twisting the feeling"?

18) You asking a person / a tutor / a medical school ought to be show up person?

19) You making a plan how you keep failing your plan?

20) You just decide to keep sabotage yourself? As long as you don't get what you want?

 

Do you always feeling your brain often cluster, meaning migrant when the stress pressing on your tempo area? Tooooooo much things you didn't ever capable to imagine one?

You want to get a warm towel on your neck.

Right now, sitting on your chair, listing 20 points.

Today you finish one website, you cross out that 17 points. Just a very basic Header. Writing word, and a description to that one article on the main frame works.

No one sees, just you anyway. 

And the remaining month, you try to get them down.

You getting one thing done tonight, you feeling good about yourself?

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