If you really to be that committ to be with one guy, not imagine another guy after another guy, you will repair the home when every winter comes, you stay there 5 years you saying, you wish your dad there, or the guy.

Certain thing like how to keep a house, a home....or interior design, the change of the bed sheet, you are so lazy, and you didn't put your real life into a scenario, you already hate that one guy one thing every single day.

"You put up with him" - that is what you mean, but you cannot live without him. You really hate the guys, something he better than you, nicer than the neighbor, or more capable, without him you will literally die and cannot breath.

You should change your life quality, not necessary these small tiny things trivial, you keep clutch things, none of that will ever be yours. You keep staring on it, that boarding train already begins. You think your age will hit which land mark? 

Really?