Not even one face you could talk to. And one day your parents will die, you miss your some older somewhere you need to breath life faces. You all relocated to the new land, and nothing like it used to be in the school, you saying, "everyone's mind are simpler."
Then the stage of the works and the jobs, its by weekly, you have to be looked down at the boss side or the supervisor. I didn't meet the supervisor that was harsh, meaning very bad language. But you might encounter something inside your life, you going home after 5 oclock every day, for 5 days a week, 52 weeks a year, you have about 2 weeks holiday.
Age 50
Age 60, you didn't know why that air becoming colder and colder. You have thought about the death in your life so many time. You did. That breaking points its your both parents were somewhat you lean on, no more someone farmilar faces when your life momentum its very very lonely. Not one face looks farmilar to you, or everyone age.
One day you start to receive a lot of the news from the facebook.
That is someone die. And that one profile has no more update at all.
You didn't realize how cold that air is gradually freezing your blood vessel every step, til you need to be hospitalize, or some small clinical works if that doctor was kind to you, but the billing were too much, you have absolutely no one around. No one is supporting you, but your own very job. You really really need that job to be fantastic, so some of you, you will hope you finding that momentum, not to be replaced by the Youth, or they starting early.....
If all goes well, you retired with tiny money, you decide how to keep a car to that check if its a rental agreement you asking youth whom if not your kid, for signing, they don't let you rent, or you finding a better way to live out.
One day you getting near to the death after another 20 years.
Alone, you facing that death.
It was never easy how that feeling was very very lonesome. While you facing death, you thought it was close your eyes, you realize, it was not sunshine. You didn't realize that book of every cover book written the "Save by the Light.", you imagine you close your eyes, you see Stars, you see Sun, you see Sunlight.
Tell me, what you imagine you will be seeing?
That movies, I am 72 heart beat. My birthday Chinese Calendar 1911 on...I didn't need someone to remind, how you all ending up the final road. This world doesn't have any more religion, other than you uptight your attitude, to be upbeat, and be truly unweaver to your mind , body, soul, where you think life going on, with that tiny help, how far you will travel, its between you know the God, you know the Law, you realize American military its they against the God in the religion, or they do on purpose without the law reinfrocement.
For some reason, that 2 words are a blank to you when you hear that.
That is the police station and fireman, or law court room, even if you wish to die, they killing you...it will be a stack of the paper process til that EVERY last piece of my wishful thinking to pass through. ITS every degree paper processing.
Never Stop.
If I were you, trying to coming out one VERY VERY lonely possible piece of "you soaking inside the ice water in the bath tubes with your 2 feet in it", the Wal-Mart Ice bags you carrying in, for how long....
Imagine....you use your brain writing down, as that Judge were a philosopher to have EVERY answer you really really really need it now. While that answer or something combine, before your parents die on the phone, you could even open your mouth that some comfer words, were not your feet too cold, "What should I do?" In Hell.
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