Most time, you wish the Top guys, like your dad to approve you - any whatever you do things in your life

I don't have a father.

Approval, like the brother-sister, you mean a gay shows up, never sex you, you feeling a good friend to talk to you, one of those kinds?

You wish that nagging, or a guy any talk behind, after the door close, only left you and him, he will be the before Angel, not after devil....not even your parents know you are suffering. You wish to get rid of that guy no matter what. You thought about the consequence if without that guy, so until you arrive the upper hand, you stay where you are.