The day when you start graduating, you start to get out of the UB system. It will be a very cold world where.....you continue this working envrionment. The job sleek means.

But your parents were the only genuine things like those one extra pair winter socks, in their very minimum wage, or whole life to save, you or around having some breathing sound like a family. One day you realize, you keep changing location of the jobs, you had a bf, but everything is really bombarding on you. No one but your parents were the only thing, that house you feeling breathing at, your own room.

I lost my room long time ago, way before Tina and Pang. It was modified to the living room. There was nothing left. Nothing I used to have. The book, the history books. 

Then right now, you didn't know that when you are 60+, you really really miss your parents, both parents. You always rely on them, not one room, one...whatever this witness program capable to assign you some small space, you feeling really lonely. You stare at the facebook, but that day it comes to you very very clearly, it was your both parents you really really wishing they were there.

Some holiday, some voice, some seeing.

Your whole life bind to your parents, to every phone calls you used to call them, including you talking to your sibling gossip about your parents, right now...it was all gone.

I didn't have any of that in my life EVER. I cannot relate ANY ANY ANY feeling why I have any parents at all in MY ENTIRE life. I try to pretend I understand, IＣＡＮＮＯＴ．