You feeling bubbling and nervous.

I will have told someone, I am so dead tired every day morning or evening, drop on my bed, and go to sleep, really. 

Drop, literally drop on my pillow and go to sleep. 

You wish that love gonna let you get away one meal he treats you. How many meals, 52 meals, that makes every single day per year, he loves you that much, you say for the rest of your life, this one stranger guys will ever treat you what? 10 meals?

Not your parents watching your every meal. 

You treat a younger guy, 10 meals in your imagination he took advantage of you, why he doesn't go to his parents for the food?  You think you love him enough? Starting 7 years old, in 10 years, that is 17 years old.